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Lansdale vs. Kennedy, who kisses better? (#19)

I’ve been trying to argue lately that Joe R. Lansdale is not merely a purveyor of fine fiction. He certainly is that. I believe he is worthy of higher accolades. I compared the scene of a patriarch of a poor family of coal miners in To The Bright and Shining Sun, to the death scene at the end of Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck. I believe they stand up to each other very well. Here’s the link to that study if you like. http://stevedmarsh.com/review-burkes-to-the-bright-and-shining-sun/

So, today I thought I’d take a look at two descriptions of like intent and tone with another big prize winner. The first selection is from William Kennedy’s Ironweed, his 1979 novel which ultimately became an excellent 1989 movie with amazing performances by Jack Nicholson, Meryl Streep. (And one of the oddest by Tom Waits). The book was a part of a triptych called the Albany Cycle. It was Ironweed which earned Kennedy the Pulizer Prize. The following is Francis, a profoundly alcoholic bum returning to the only place he ever thought of as home and to his wife whom he has not seen in years. The scene begins inside of Francis’s memory.

From Ironweed by William Kennedy.
And then they kissed.
Not just then, but some hours or maybe even days later, Francis compared that kiss to Katrina’s first, and found them as different as cats and dogs. Remembering them both now as he stood looking at Annie’s mouth with its store teeth, he perceived that a kiss is as expressive of a way of life as is a smile, or a scarred hand. Kisses come up from below, or down from above. They come from the brain sometimes, sometimes from the heart, and sometimes just from the crotch. Kisses that taper off after a while come only from the heart and leave the taste of sweetness. Kisses that come from the brain tend to try to work things out inside other folks’ mouths and don’t hardly register. And kisses from the crotch and the brain put together, with maybe a little bit of heart, like Katrina’s, well they are kisses that can send you right around the bend for your whole life.
But then you get one like that first whizzer on Kibbee’s lumber pile, one that comes out of the brain and the heart and the crotch, and out of the hands on your hair, and out of those breasts that are not all the way blowd up yet, and out of the clutch them arms give you, and out of time itself, which keeps track of how long it can go on without you getting even slightly bored the way you got bored years later with kids and almost anybody but Helen, and out of fingers (Katrina had fingers like that) that run themselves around and over your face and down your neck, and out of the grip you take on her shoulders, especially on them bones that come out of the middle of her back like angel wings, and out of them eyes that keep opening and closing to make sure that this is still going on and still real and not just stuff you dream about and when you know it’s real it’s OK to close ‘em again, and outta that tongue, holy shit, that tongue, you got to ask yourself where she learned that because nobody ever did that that good except Katrina who was married and with a kid and had a right to know, but Annie, goddamn, Annie, where’d you pick that up, or maybe you’ve been gidzeyin’ heavy on this lumber pile regular (No, no, no, I know you never, I always knew you never), and so it is natural with a woman like Annie that the kiss come out of every part of her body and more, out of that mouth with them new teeth Francis is now looking at, with the same lips he remembers and doesn’t want to kiss anymore except in memory (though that could be subject to change), and he sees well beyond the mouth into a primal location in the woman’s being, a location that evokes in him not only the memory of years but decades and even more, the memory of epochs, aeons, so that he is sure that no matter where he might have sat with the woman and felt this way, whether it was in some ancient cave or some bogside shanty, or on a North Albany lumber pile, he and she would both know that there was something in each of them that had to stop being one and become two, that had to swear that for ever after there would never be another (and there never has been, quite), and that there would be allegiance and sovereignty and fidelity and other such tomfool horseshit that people destroy their heads with when what they are saying has nothing to do with time’s forevers but everything to do with the simultaneous recognition of an eternal twain, well sir, then both of them, Francis and Annie, or the Francises and Annies of any age, would both know in that same incident that there was something between them that had to stop being two and become one.
Such was the significance of that kiss.
Francis and Annie married a month and a half later.
Katrina, I will love you forever.
However, something has come up.

Wow! I love that kiss. I might have had one like it once in my life. It might just be me adopting this memory as my own.
But now, consider Joe Lansdale’s comments on the same subject. Bear in mind, Joe adds some difficult social stuff in too. The main male character here is called a lot of names, my favorite being Deadwood Dick¬¬—former slave, former dirt farmer, former Buffalo Soldier, current sharpshooter, bouncer and spittoon emptier. He takes a fancy to a woman named Win. It is implied that Win is of no relation to the woman with whom she is traveling, but it seems to be that she is the daughter of a slave and “the madam’s” dead, slave-owner husband. It is just after the Civil War and the West is still trying to figure racial society. But none of that matters in the following paragraphs.

Paradise Sky by Joe R. Lansdale

I dropped down on the cloth, and when I did she grabbed my head and pulled my face to hers and kissed me. It was for me the finest moment in my life. That kiss was like fire. It lit my lips. It lit my head. It lit my heart. It lit my soul. I was ablaze with passion.
That first loving kiss, the one that comes out of you from the source of your personal river, and the one that comes from her that is the same, there’s never another moment like it; never another flame that burns so hard. It can never be that good again, ever. All manner of goodness can come after, but it’s different. And that’s a good thing, because if we burned that hot for too long, we’d be nothing but ash.
What followed some might think was better than that kiss, us taking off our clothes and all, bringing ourselves together with excitement on that picnic cloth, under that blanket with the weather turning cooler and cooler and there being the smell of pine and oncoming snow in the air, but it wasn’t better than that kiss.
Don’t misunderstand me. It was well worth doing, and if I was making me a list, it would be listed second in goodness and something that works better in repetition, but everything in my life from that point on lay under the mountain of that single kiss, and try as I might, I have never climbed that high again.

There, get that guy a gold medal.

Just Because I Don’t Know Fashion… (#11)

I know a thing or two

You ask me about the drape of a dress,
or if your shoes work with an outfit.
I can answer without looking.
I know it looks fine, great, even wonderful.
Sadly, we both know my sense of fashion
does nothing to augment yours.
It doesn’t matter my protestations,
you still have to FaceTime a daughter.

But when I tell you how good you look
you may not tell me I’m wrong.
You do not see yourself through my eyes.
I have great eyes when it comes to finding beauty.
I see the silver in your hair,
sparkling just on top of the gold.
Shimmering.
I see the blue of your eyes
in sun and shadow
on summer sand dunes
and trying to dig the car out
of deepening snow in the driveway.
I see the grace in the curve of your jaw.
I see your skin, pale and vulnerable
At the base of your neck.
I watch you examine a thing
held hard to the sunlight.
I see the intelligence of your investigation.
Lasers.
I see your butt.
Don’t ever argue with me about the glory of your ass.
I know a thing or two about
Glory.
I see your carriage,
its poise,
Its grace.
I see your smile,
its warmth,
its quickness,
its generosity.
Kindness.
I see your lips when you kiss me,
When you kiss your kids,
When you kiss your grand kids.
I see your youest you.
Your purpose.
Beauty.

Seeking a Headline (#5)

I always forget the vines behind the shed.

Every year they get pruned a day or two later.
Their beds are cleared last.
They are planted too near each other
so they get pruned mercilessly close.

This year I had to dig last year’s bird’s nest
out of the sheltering crotch of three canes.
Then cut the canes away.
Last year’s vigilance against the birds
showed a breach on the southern border.

This arbor could be more beautiful.
Today it is only less ugly–
less neglected.
Some days that’s the best I can do.

Memory slips,
neglect rises,
diminished man survives.
There’s your headline.

To My Wife the Witness

I must apologize to the vines this year.
I was much too late in the pruning.
Instead of my cuts coming in the middle of winter,
when cold and ice have anesthetized
their limbs on cordons of frozen steel,
I was in my own darkness,
wrapped in a blanket that hindered action.
I merely bore out the short gray days and
stared impotently into the black nights.
Winter shook me like a dog shakes a snake in summer.

Instead, I come to them in a time
more comfortable for me–
A warming day,
knowing
that the necessary cuts come in Spring–
that  living sap will leak
because of my tardiness,
that I risk the health,
of buds,
of growth,
of flowers,
of fruit,
the wine.

I am sorry.
I will do better now.
Our chemistry is better applied this Spring.

I vow to better protect against living rabbits and deer,
against a thousand kinds of scuttling bugs,
against the single minded mania of birds
and greedy ground squirrels.
The end-of-the-season Autumn battle
will be fierce.

I cannot be certain of next November
or her cruelest shorter sister February,
But I can offer the summer, still with hope.

Mary Oliver Died Today

Mary Oliver died today
as she so often predicted.
Eighty-three is a good age for a poet to die:
old enough to have long production,
old enough to have regarded the brackets around natural life.
She’s gone.

It is winter. Life in the Midwest is sere:
browns, grays, near whites,
frozen ridges and refrozen rime.

My natural world shows little
of birds.
Nothing
of reptiles,
of insects,
of tiny mammals.

When I die I hope it is February
in a place just as sere.
Better to fade out in a scene already faded
than to be the lone grayness
surrounded by a burst of flora and fauna,
a wasteful abundance of color
a cacophony of birdsong and pig whistles.

Transitions are easier for the living
if there isn’t too much change.
I don’t know what they are like for the dead–
probably less dramatic than we fear.

Holiday Letter

The letters we write can’t be edited down to contain an entire year.
Fonts get smaller, margins get smaller. It just doesn’t matter.
We love you.
We miss you.
We saw you and we still miss you.

We hope we hugged you last year;
If not, it is our primary goal this year.

How’s our life? Pretty great. Hope yours is too.
Steve stays retired. Hard work.
Deb stays in education. Really hard work with payoffs (just not cash).
Kids are all working.
Grandkids still convince us of the value of humanity.

Stay warm in the winter,
Cool in the summer
And chill as hell the rest of the year.

May your Christmas be perfect.
May 2019 bring moments that steal your breath.

Start out knowing you are loved.

On a Byway Most Any Time

Two young poems walked down an alley
arguing.
“You already agreed,” said one,
“that Love is what we seek.”
“Yes,” said the other. “But not the only thing.
You know, food, shelter, some other things too.”

The first poem dug his bare hands into empty pockets
And hunched his shoulders into stubborn wind.
A cold mist had begun to drift inside buttons.
“Which one first?”

“Why, the most important, of course!”
The second poem was smug.
“Then love,” said the first,
his attitude improving despite the elements.

“I was thinking shelter,” said the second.
Low, distant thunder rolled through them.
“Shelter it is, then, where we might find love.”

Donald Hall Died Today

Donald Hall died today
as he so often had promised.
I suppose if I live to nearly ninety,
some lesser poet could mutter
the same proclamation over my span.

I do not know why poets
who, more than anyone,
should know they are going to spend
infinitely more time dead,
mutter on so about what it is like to die.

Or what it is like to watch another
Felled by this or that “itis” or “osis”
Or some other affliction ending in “ia” or “oma,”
leaving behind an honest love,
haunting all the places and things the living touch.

Donald Hall died for thirty years.
The first time I died, I was thirty-six, whining.
Poetry was no balm.
Language lost value, diminished in scope.
It was unrecorded, unremarkable.

Life is disappearance: of mothers, good and bad
into unphased dirt; of fathers who did or did not
play catch with sons; of brothers, sisters, and old dogs.
The dirt abides. The ending of the lives of poets
is the black at the end of the fade out.

Touchstones

America,
What are your touchstones?
What is it that allows American arrogance?
I don’t say that judgmentally.
It’s able to simply sit like a toad in a puddle.
It’s a toad. It’s in a puddle.
In this case, the toad’s the truth.
In another case, it might be the puddle.

Lately, a lot has been said about guns.
Is it guns? Is that a touchstone?
You could make a case.
Lately the case seems very gory, and hate-filled.
Guns seem to have something to do with racism
and kind of sideways religious intolerance.
And hate. It’s rolled up into a
Tangled confluence.

Is it money?
Our money or will anyone’s money do?
Or is it the system that delivers the money?
Or is it the people to whom the system delivers the money?
I get lost in the hierarchy.
Seems like a lot of hate in the world about money right now.
Or maybe it’s the system that makes Americans hate.
Or the people who the system works for.
It’s kind of tangly too.

Is it freedom? I love freedom in America.
Freedom is great. More freedom is greater.
I’m free to do anything I want in America.
I can walk down your street with guns and money.
And I can say hateful things at the top of my lungs.
That’s freedom and it takes
a thousand Hell’s Angles spending money on guns on the head of a pin
to keep us free.

God bless Hell’s Angles.
God bless freedom.