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It’s Entropy, Baby

This is another old poem, but I found a link on YouTube to an old video I put out years ago. If I were to record it again today, I’d pick a moderately slower tempo. (and my new gravelly voice.) It’s a good poem to put out on one’s 69th birthday.

 

No matter what you build, it all comes crashing down. No matter what you want, it all goes out of round. No matter how you sing, you make a discordant sound. It’s Entropy, Baby and it’s the law of the land.

It all spills into disarray. It all breaks into pieces. It happened to Sister Teresa. It happened to Jesus. As much as we want to keep breathing, eventually it ceases. It’s Entropy, Baby. And it’s the law of the land. Everybody turns to dust.

The universe is collapsing in upon its point of birth, or else it’s evaporating  away from the center. No matter what we do In our little stay on Earth, we end up evicted like A delinquent renter. It’s Entropy, Baby and it’s the law of the land. Everybody turns to dust. And we’re breaking up the band.

Energy flows to where it hasn’t been. No matter how much you have, you always need more again. Feather, fur or fin–you die, you rot, you pay the wages of your sin. Your molecules go out. They don’t even know each other when they meet up again. It’s Entropy, Baby. And it’s the law of the land. Everybody turns to dust. And we’re breaking up the band. On a subatomic level

Everything goes to hell Given enough time. My effort to keep the rhythm raises hell with the rhyme. When I pay attention to the rhyming, the timing falls apart. Everything goes to hell. There’s arrhythmia in my heart. It’s Entropy, Baby. And it’s the law of the land. Everybody turns to dust. And we’re breaking up the band. On a subatomic level they need your parts again.

Sunshine singers say, “Look, it’s bright.” The sun comes up and spreads the light. The rain that falls on the grave in the spring brings grass, and leaves, and there’s life again. But it’s Entropy, Baby. And it’s the law of the land. Everybody turns to dust. And we’re breaking up the band. On a subatomic level They need your parts again. ‘Cause it’s entropy, Baby.

The elements that bring back the new life will erode my gravestone over time And the granite will turn to sand. Even the conquering worm becomes dust motes in the sunshine. And children who play in the sunshine will grow,  break their hearts, break their necks and die all alone. It’s Entropy, Baby. And it’s the law of the land. Everybody turns to dust. And we’re breaking up the band. On a subatomic level They need your parts again. ‘Cause it’s entropy, Baby. And it’s the law of the land.

Sit Still

Common frogs mating

 

As light fades
over the pond.
Frog song emerges;
one, then two,
five, then twelve.
Dozens sing.
Hundreds harmonize.
Thousands send an acoustic aura.
The musical swells
rise and fall,
synchronize,
then fall apart.

Each male chants,
“Come. Pick me.
My genes are splendid.”

And the females too,
hasten to frogsong
sung seasonally plumb.

And still,
if she is seized
from behind,
rough, rude thumbs
hooked into armpits,
she sings again:
either, “Yes. Yes,”
or “No, release me.”
Wrong breed?
Wrong species?
Deformed sperm?

Males release, mostly,
if told to.

The sound is not a murmuration.
(I looked it up.)
It is more a susurration,
rising
and falling–
a weak repeating pattern
that screams
into the otherwise
still night–
“Seize me.
Spill seed.”
Afresh, the cycle begins.
Sit still.

I celebrate the life of my father’s mother’s father: Francis Marion Cox

I can remember
near Memorial Day
of 1955.
My great-grandfather Cox,
(just Grampa to me)
has me seated in the car
up front with him.
I am sitting as tall as I can
in order to see out the windows.
Grampa is driving through the center of town,
three traffic lights then as now.
The first light clicks to red
in front of the courthouse.
Grandpa rolls to a stop next to
a skinny man
wearing an army barracks cap
in the cross walk.
The man, much younger than Grandpa,
nonetheless familiar, says,
“Frank, where’s your Poppy?”
Grandpa always looks pissed off,
Like he’s chewing something tough.
But he pulls two dollars
from his shirt pocket,
hands them to the man in the cap.
“I want two, Melvin.”
He gives me a glance.
He doesn’t smile,
He looks like he got stuck
with some duty
beneath his station.
He lays both paper flowers
on the dash.
He drives one block and turns right,
drives past the Post Office,
makes another right
into the parking lot behind Beech Market.
He stops the old Dodge,
takes a paper poppy
And twists the wire stem
around the middle button on my shirt
He does the same to his own.

I remember he placed his higher,
where he couldn’t really see it
but others could.
The VFW had completely
occupied our downtown.
I didn’t know then
that
the poppy was a protection racket.
It was a cool poppy.

Grampa always smelled of tobacco.
The poppy didn’t smell like anything.

My Mem’ry

This is what I did today instead of work. (Sound on.)

You know this is semi-autobiographical parody, right?

You know, of all the things
That got away from me,
I miss my mem’ry most.

Of all the things
That got away from me,
I miss my old mem’ry most.

Lost my money.
Lost my love.
Lost my house,
But I miss my mem’ry the most.

I lost a bunch of other things
I don’t remember right now.
Oh, God–I miss my mem’ry the most.

Of all the things
That got away from me,
I certainly do miss my mem’ry most.

I lost so many things,
But mostly I miss my mem’ry.

 

I must acknowledge the lifelong inspiration of Tom Waits,  Leon Redbone and especially Chuck E. Weiss

Shame

The Wounded Angel 1903 Hugo Simberg

 

You quit.

For years after,
I wanted you back.

At first, I was willing to make any sacrifice,
Change any foible within me,
Deny every quibble I might invent.

In trying to open to others,
I knew I was still searching
For some 2.0 version of you.
Unspoken shame lives darkly in that truth.

Shame remains, a sniper in the night.
It does not look at me with liquid blue eyes.
Or if it does,
They are unblinking
Like a shark.

Today, I have a different love,
Together now for decades.
Through the whole panoply of feelings
We have traversed dead lunar landscapes,
Navigated oceans of tears
Which would have consumed you again.

Shame abides.
Mine is uneasy and refuses to rest,
We co-exist. It’s like owning a mean cat—
Tail switches like mad some days, ears laid flat.
It murders songbirds at night
But does not gift them to me as restitution.
My shame is a mercenary stuck tick-tight.

Cathartes Aura (#9)

Stepped off the thermal

Ancestors in my family
(mostly women–the men are heathens)
believed that when the Turkey Vultures
roosted in the trees,
the lower they roosted
the greater chance of a death nearby.
It was not always a person.
Sometimes a pet or a milk cow.

I have been feeling a step or two
closer to death all winter,
but with the return of the Vultures
and the very late hints of an actual Spring,
I have felt Death’s silent retreat.
She understands her eventual victory
and she is satisfied to be patient.

The Buzzards have been working the back roads
now that the snow is gone,
especially in the ditches by the two lanes.
Winter has conspired
to preserve and to age
deer carcasses
and the hairy lumps of raccoons and opossums.
The Raptors survived the snow that lingered
after their arrival
on a predictable fare of flat squirrels.

The Old Ones are patient too.
All day they have wheeled high in the sky.
They constantly survey eight square miles.
They watch and they wait.
They understand their inevitable victory as well.

They come from miles to roost in loose communities.
They wheel in from on high
in tight arcs, left and right.
They depend on smaller currents,
Invisible to us.
A precise and studied aerial ballet,
they spill air from powerful wings,
which if provoked
can break a man’s forearm,
wheel tight through branches.
Again spill wind,
drop the back of the wing to slow speed, spill air,
drop the black curtains of feathers,
to hug the air to breast and
to stop
with no visible support.
To step
off the wind onto the branch
more than halfway to the top of the tree.
Folding wings, they squat motionless,
hunching their shoulders into the last fading rays of the sun,
black, slender lumps on the limbs of leafless trees.

They sleep
and dream Vulture dreams
of warmer days
and bounty.

Grandpa Buddha’s Epistle to His Grandkids (#10)

Dear Grandchild,
(If we share a funny name for each other, put yours here ____________.)
(If we don’t have one, you should be called Farnsworth…
unless your real name is Farnsworth,
in which case you should be called Bingo,
like the dog.)

Time has gotten stretched in my generation.
Everything takes people longer now.
Childhood lasts a very long time.
When I was a child,
I couldn’t wait to be an adult.
Each birthday mattered. Even half-birthdays.

5 meant go to school
8 meant getting homework
10 was DOUBLE DOUBLE DIGITS DIGITS
12 was a dozen
14 meant high school
16 meant drivers license! Freedom! Buy gas! Pay tax!
18 meant adult. Move out. Go live your life.

But here I am writing to you when I’m almost 70
And I don’t know how long we will know each other.
One or some or none of you may not be BORN yet!
If you know me,
I hope I loved you enough and
Just the right way.
If you don’t know me,
Or you can’t remember,
I did love you,
Even if we didn’t say hello face-to-face.

I have held you as much as you needed.
I wanted each of you to need holding
As much as I wanted.
I smelled your baby head.
I can still smell your baby head.

I was there when you ran,
When you swam,
I was there when you scored in soccer.
And when you sang in the play.
I’m still there whenever you do something important.
Baptism? Yup
Wet your pants in school? Uh huh
Hit the ball?
Stopped the shot?
Wanted to ask out that special person?
Picked a puppy at the rescue?
I was there.
When you think of me,
I’m there.
I’m there
Any time you think of me.

Love,
PopPop

How the Sun Rose to the Heavens (#7)

Portrait of a Turkey Vulture

 

In the Before Time
the animals lived in peace
among themselves.
The forest was their home.
But the Sun lived outside the forest
and threatened to turn the forest into desert,
to singe the trees and dry the ponds and rivers.

The Animal Council decided that one of them
must deliver the sun high into the sky,
to hang it there so that all would be safe.

Turtle was selected
because of the armor on her back
and her ability to march all day.
It would be a long trip to the apex of the sky.
In the days before the Two-Legs Turtle had a lovely voice,
one that nearly purred as she thanked the Animal Council
for the opportunity to serve the greater good.
She took the Sun on her back
and sprang immediately to carry it aloft.
But before she could get even a quarter of the way to the heavens
she shrugged off the sun.
Her back was burned deeply.
She fell, screaming all the way down from the sky
and landed hard on all four of her legs.
She tried to run to the river to cool her burns
but her legs were so damaged from the impact
she could barely crawl.
To this day the outside of the turtle’s back is black and melted,
Her legs are mere stumps with claws.
The only voice she has left is a hideous hiss.
The long midnight conversations
of her kind are lost forever.
The frogs pitied her loss of voice.
The fishes swam under her as she rested on a log in still-too-hot sunshine.

But all was not lost.
Opossum was blessed with a great bushy tail in those days.
Her tail was the envy of Fox
and boastful, chattering Squirrel.
She could wrap the sun in her tail
and finish carrying it to the top of the sky.
She embarked, in the dark, the Sun completely shrouded
in her tail. The stars were her only guide
as she set off to the Heavens.
But only half-way there,
the sun began to burn out of her tail and
to spill light and heat throughout the firmament.
Opossum tumbled back to earth,
falling around her burning tail, screaming
until her voice too was gone,
reduced to a vicious, hissing snarl.
Opossum’s tail is a pink, hairless, burned worm to this day.

The Animal Council did not know what to do.
Things were only a little better, but it was Spring.
In Summer, the temperatures would rise.
Surely the forest would not survive.

Of her own volition,
the most regal of all the birds,
the Turkey Vulture, set off to right the world.
Her long, powerful wings lifted her slowly skyward
to where the sun hung half-way between Earth and Sky.
Turkey Vulture was the most beautiful of all birds
in those days.
A great crown of a thousand colored feathers
adorned her head
and a ruff of the same wrapped her neck.
When she reached the sun
she placed her head against the burning orb
and pushed with powerful strokes of her long wings.
She carried the sun to its safest height.
Here the sun could warm the earth
and the waters but the great scar of desert
would grow no larger.

All Turkey Vultures since have lived with
bare scarred skin on their heads and necks
instead of their birthright of the glorious crown of feathers
she had been given by the Mother.
She too, no longer speaks.
An angry, snuffing hiss through her nostrils is the best she can muster.
She still flies with no effort
riding the sun’s thermals and
the uplifts it sets in motion.
She no longer associates with the other animals
or the Animal Council. Some say it is her lost pride.
But the forest abides.